Just Another Manic Monday

Being fully prepared to have a week that was drastically better than last, I set about to prepare myself with reading, prayer and meditation to fully accept the reality of my experiences and to be accepting of those to come. Yeah, yeah, yeah.... Let me back up.

Thursday was absolutely, unequivocally one of my lowest days in quite some time that I can recall. But through the trial came a deeper understanding that laptops are expensive, but even more important of who I am, what I believe and the path that I am on. It prompted me to take a deeper look into the world, into myself and to my goals. These include both short and long term. I do believe that I came out of the day a much better person than I was when I woke that morning. Friday was spent in more quiet reflection and spending time with that amazing man who I am privileged enough to call my husband. We compared our individual goals and the goals that we would like to see accomplished as a couple and as a family. Taking the time to come together and compile a game plan was comforting as well as confirming. However Saturday brought with it an unexpected blessing. Sunshine.... Yes! I was able to take a nice run with the Chief in the sunshine and 40 degrees. It was invigorating to soak up Vitamin D and further discuss strategy for some upcoming renovations while enjoying the Southern Ohio terrain. Since then I have felt better than I have in some time. Saturday and Sunday night found me sleeping more soundly and restfully than I had in what felt like ages. Which is odd considering how busy we've been.

What I carry with me today are some of the following confirmations:

* I have an opinionated big mouth....

* It is hard to be the bigger person when you are a girl and are only 5'3" and weigh in around 110....

* The only microscope I need to concern myself with being examined under is that of my God. He knows my heart, my adoration, my love and my soul. He sees the whole of me unlike anyone else who may consider that they do. And that assurance carries with it the peace I need to sleep restfully, worship freely and know whose I am.

* In turn, Satan knows whose I am too. The closer I get to God and the deeper my faith grows the more arduous his efforts become in creating my stumbling. Therefore I need to cling to the word and hold tight the results of promises kept as I face the storms that are intended to bring me down.

* I have incredible friends who have the astounding ability to make me smile. With words, gestures and laughs. I adore my friends and they are an appreciated, loved and needed aspect in my life. With every text, phone call and poke in my ribs and kick to the rear they encourage me to strive to be better, applaud my efforts (even when they fall short). They are ready to giggle when I need to giggle, cry with me when I need to cry and celebrate with me when I need to celebrate. And I am always at the ready to be the same for them.

* I am a big nerd and I will no longer attempt to hide it.

* I have never been more sure or confident of the path that Aaron and I have strived towards. We have both come to a prayerful conclusion as to what we want to be when we grow up and we have aligned all the appropriate pieces to see that come to fruition. What contentment there is in even a fractional revelation of your purpose.

* I have a very strong disdain for viruses. My sweet little fidget has been slowed by un upper respiratory virus. I have been serenaded by the sound of coughs, hacks, wheezes, sniffles and a chorus of whines. The best estimation by my trusty pediatrician.... at the very least, a week before she is feeling like herself. Sigh. It broke my heart when after a dose of Motrin she asked when we were going to the doctor so she could get medicine to make her better.

* My kids have to be the most bizarre kids in the tri-state area if not the country! My monkey told his sister that she just needed to puke. While I thought that he would follow that up with the suggestion that it might help her stomach feel better.... rather, he said that it would give her another day off from school. For every jubilation over a snow day I was surprised by the utter disappointment at the impending snow storms ability to give the kids yet another snow day. It would appear that they are very attached to the idea of having a spring break. Who knew? For the record, I'm with them. While I really don't care if they get a spring break or not (I still have to work...) I do NOT want to be driving on a half an inch of ice.

* While I secretly wish that Steve Jobs was my rich uncle who would spoil me rotten with technological trinkets, I will have to find other means by which to acquire the toys I wish to replace and acquire. I realize I should not covet such things... but it is very hard not to when I was the very proud owner of a perfectly good mac book that was struck down in it's prime! Yes, my 2 year old trusty mac book met it's demise when my precious, irreproachable fidget inadvertently sloshed her entire cup of orange juice towards the back of my mac book. While my offspring held the stance of the four horseman awaiting the apocalypse that was sure to reign down I simply cleaned up the mess and excused myself for a short drive to have my break down within the privacy of my vehicle while my amazing and sympathetic husband listened. For this was the final act to my previously mentioned Thursday of doom. Alas, I will soon be the proud owner of a mac book pro. Because if I gotta replace.... I might as well upgrade. The iPad may or may not have to wait. tee hee hee

Now if you'll excuse me.... I'll be perusing the apple website compiling my wish list. =)